I’ve been working at my office for about 6 months now. I really have zero complaints about the office itself - my coworkers are literally always there to help if needed. I only recently received another judge/division so it’s only recently that my case count has been around 150 (was about 40-80 before). But both my judges are pretty relaxed and understanding. I really should be doing fine.

But I feel miserable. I’m passionate about indigent defense but I have maybe a third of the work ethic and time management the rest of my coworkers have. I don’t like doing motions. I don’t like that usually the only clients I have that want a trial are the ones that should almost certainly take the plea offer. I don’t like feeling like I neglect so many of my clients because I end up focusing on a couple a day. A lot clients are frustrated with both me and the prosecutor. And I realize that’s just part of the job but….I’ve started to think maybe I’m in the wrong field.

I’m not excited going to court. I’m not excited going to work. I feel overstimulated and overwhelmed when I get home. I find myself dreading certain client interactions. I figure I should give it more time to see. But I feel like my clients deserve better than me.