I'm honestly pretty proud of myself. It took a lot for me to face my fear of needles again especially since I've had some very traumatic experiences with fainting, passing out, having to be restrained, and having so many needles in me while I was in the ICU after my car accident.

I think the car accident in a way helped me overcome my fear of needles since they were taking so much blood all the time and I honestly just let them do it because I was in so much physical pain and on so many drugs for it. I was scared today that since I wasn't stuck in the ICU or stoned off of morphine that I would have a panic attack again and have to be restrained, but surprisingly I stayed calm, looked away, and held my stuffed animal tight as I just waited for it to be over. It was quick and easy, and I didn't get dizzy in the slightest which honestly surprised me.

I know that this may not seem PSTD related, but I wanted to share this because I think it's one of the ways my terrible car accident and the trauma I went through while recovering have made me a little stronger. I now know I can survive these things with poise and grace.

I still get flashbacks, I still have trouble sleeping at night, albeit it's gonna be the two month anniversary tomorrow (on Christmas eve ironically) but for the first time I'm a little proud of myself.