Hi everyone, 30 m combat veteran. I’ve been diagnosed with Treatment resistant PTSD due to my time deployed and having been involved in direct conflict. Long story short, took many lives and lost many friends.

Am I alone in feeling like imposter syndrome? Doctors and family told me I’ve changed but honestly I just feel short tempered. In other words I dont feel different than anyone else dealing with anxiety and depression.

The only thing I can think that is I have attempted ending things on 2 occasions, leading to multiple involuntary stays and the mental hospital. But those were just circumstantially bad situations.

Is it just not recognizing the signs myself? Do I not have it? Everyone I knew from my time active duty had nightmares and stuff, so why the ptsd? Why load me down with 6 different medications?

Thanks for reading, I’m sorry I just needed to vent since i don’t have irl friends.