I was just 4 or 5 when a kid maybe close to 3, lowered his testis onto a blender in operation without a pitcher, only blade, spinning, and he lost his genetalia at childcare, also i shot a car with a .22 rifle, it was a neighbor's car. Then many other gun incidents took place, i found drugs, remember someone saying candy'' it mustve been coke 😜 my arm was dislocated, my spine made into a hunch, and trying to find help was impossible, im old now, no home, first time in my life besides living w/false family that threw me out many times also. Other kids were hurt maybe deceased, i have a recollection of being pulled over and the officer was shot. I was 10-11 maybe. More things happened inbetween and after, someone went out of their way, i think i was under 24 hr surveillance by family associates to make sure if i found help theyd get me back, one way or the other; Life In Captivity.