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-Please do not downvote me for what I am going to say-

Obligatory I'm 16 years old. I KNOW that many people advise teenagers or younger people not to take psychedelics because their brain is still developing and they will not be able to understand the profound effects.

I've reaserched a lot about shrooms before I ever dosed. At the moment I've spent roughly 30-45 hours studying the effects, reports, etc etc. Aswell as writing a scientific journal about psilocybin to be published in early November so please do not tell me that I do not understand the risks or what could happen to me.

Although I have taken psychedelics three times before it was at a 1G dose 2G dose and 3.5G dose. I was able to handle them well and did not abuse the substance. I had not taken them (at that time) with proper guidance or to seek answers. These trips were spaced out several months away from each other to lower the chances of HPPD.

I plan to do my first heroic dose on Friday (5G of B ) For the past two days I have been doing a 15 minute meditation before I goto bed and I plan on eating healthier before friday. Is there anything else I should do? Or any recommendations for music? (At the moment I plan on using Bill Richard's playlist)

For those wondering for what I am trying to find a solution for is how to get through my sexual abuse/ rape since at the moment our society generally is not supportive to male victims who've been raped by women. I've tried other ways to get through this but since many people in my life arent supportive (or I dont trust enough to tell) I've definitely spiraled into a more depressive state than normal since I have to sit next to the person who had tricked me into getting into a vulnerable situation. I'm essentially reminded 5 days of the week about what happened and I honestly cant take it anymore.

I'm not suicidal but this is going to essentially be a last ditch effort to save my mental health.

Also, does anybody know any stories or statistics about younger people developing HPPD without a previous tolerance/abuse of LSD or magic mushrooms.