The first hour was panic induced agony. I couldn’t sit still, wracked with fear of the unknown. (Logistically, I know better than this, than to try to control what’s happening, but it’s like my body forgot). So, I tried distracting myself by watching my favorite episode of Vikings (when they went to Uppsala). By the end of the episode I was cocooned in a blanket on the floor, on my knees rocking back and forth. And as the song “Sacrafice” started playing, my eyes became waterfalls and I retreated to my altar. I closed my eyes and I heard my spirit guides say “we’ve got you” and proceeded to let out months of sadness and anger. (I’ve found it quite hard to cry on my own since March). I have PTSD and my body and mind often goes into survival mode which makes it difficult to feel much else other than “fight or flight” most days. My spirit guides held me and I felt one stroking my head. I unleashed all the pain. They let me take all the time I needed and then brought to me the most beautiful place in the sky and then into the Universe. The intention I set before all of this was to let go of anger and sadness and to be reminded of beauty and happiness and that is exactly what I got. It was a blissful 5-6 hours after that. Such beautiful visions. And when I went outside to sit in my garden, I could hear the collective sound of the Universe known as “Om”. I started coming back to earth and felt immense peace and empathy. I thanked my spirit guides for carrying me. I heard “you’re welcome.” I am feeling so much better today and intend on continuing my healing journey on a regular basis with my re-appreciation of plant medicine.

P.s. Started with a 2g dose (I’m small, 5’3” and 120lbs) and followed that up with 2 additional doses of 1g spaced 1-2 hours a part over a period of 7 hours.