i’ve taken shrooms a few times now, as well as a microdose, and each time it just causes terrible body pain. no visuals or psychological effects. i have a lot of complex mental illness, and have been on prescribed ketamine for my cptsd and major depression, which has helped that, but i still have a lot of severe anxiety. i heard shrooms could be beneficial, so i grew my own, and it still causes pain. the last time i took them, a year or more ago, i was in a far worse place, and assumed my much improved situation would help. the pain wasn’t as bad this time, but still very miserable, and i don’t understand why. even with a tiny microdose, it just hurt. it’s very disappointing and confusing.

my partner has had some better experiences on shrooms, but he is getting some body tenseness and unpleasantness too now. if it’s just feeding off our stress and anxiety, how are we supposed to find it helpful?

(i have cptsd, autism, fibromyalgia, ocd, etc.)