I struggled with severe depression since I was at the age of 8 Yeats old, anxiety since the age 15. I'm 24 now and I had a attempt when I was 18 years old while homeless. Anyways I thought getting out of homelessness and moving to a better area would help my depression and anxiety well news flash it didn't. So I turned to weed and alcohol since 19 and quit when I had just turned 24. And I'm trying my best not to binge eat, and it's hard.

So I'm wondering if getting on meds is right for me. My doctor keeps encouraging me to suck it up and try, but I feel like it's hopeless. I've been depressed the majority of my life. I couldn't imagine anything else any different. Also, I wonder how it feels to wake up and not have a heavy feeling of dread and doom ?

I see others on here saying that their anxiety got worse taking prozac and have had panic attacks. Well, I already battle with panic attacks daily, so what? Is it going to make me even worse off than I am? I couldn't even imagine being worse off than I already am now, but I guess anything is possible.

I'm not sure what to do. I tried lexapro 5mg, and It made my intrusive thoughts very loud and made me very happy then very suicidal :(

My doctor told me that if I'm feeling constantly suicidal and it's been going on for years than that means that I have a chemical imbalance and that I'll probably have to be on meds for the rest of my life :(

My life is hopeless and it sucks