Salam. I'm a cross dresser born with this problem, even though that's not how I might look appearance wise but that's my reality. I learned at an early age to disguise that feeling from others. I cannot help myself as it's engrained in me and I fear getting into relationships because I know for sure I'll be judged harshly. Mukhannath is not covered properly by our scholars but I think I fall into that or close to trans categorization.

In order to not sin I am looking for someone from the opposite gender to share my life with; who can understand that I have this problem and hoping to find someone here with whom things can eventually end up in marriage. Kindly help me find someone. Are there women accepting of this?

Edit: Here is another question I've been wondering. I know mukhannath (feminine men) existed and were accepted as part of Islamic societies before. Do women of Islamic origin then and today feel threatened to be in relationship with such men? Or to help them not commit a sin? Or do they take them as their competition against other men?

JazakAllah