I feel a strong sense of internal pressure to be perfect or even just ensure progress in all aspects of my life. I have my hands in too many places at once. I feel stressed until I have done what I've planned out for my day.

I don't want to fall behind and I don't know how to be reasonably proactive and responsible without going to such extremes. I don't want to go back to being lazy and undisciplined. I often oscillate between these two poles, depending on when I feel I need to make a change in my life. If I were to put something off without feeling concerned about doing so, it feels like I'm being undisciplined and complacent; so I end up feeling stressed when I think of doing that. Putting things off is something that comes up a lot in life so I know I'd probably start doing it a lot and lose my discipline if I start doing it.

I can't rest until I've done everything and I feel like I'll never have the time to even begin working on most of the projects I would like to work on.