I've been dabbling in online casinos, mostly blackjack for a few years, maybe a handful of times a year, nothing too consistent.

I have never really had any luck but last night something changed.

I was playing this version of blackjack called "high streak blackjack" that has a very lucrative side bet that you can make a lot of money on.

Long story short I grinded $100 into $9500 dollars over the course of two days and I'm walking away with a grand total of $244 so $144 profit.

I know it's a literal stereotype but I was going to stop at 10k and I was so fucking close that it just became a mental thing.

I told a good friend this and he said why didn't you just take out $9000 and leave $500 and honestly it didn't even occur to me at the time.

I feel like a total fucking greedy failure to be honest, I'm not saying this money would be life changing but it would of been a significant cushon.

I can't believe I fucked up this bad and got stuck in such a mental rut even 5k would of been more than enough.

I'm at a loss.