I’ve been lurking on this sub because I know I’ll be on probation at some point. I’m out on bond right now for a level 6 felony domestic battery in the presence of a child. I know what I did is fucked up and you can hate me if you want to. I’ve been drunk for about 5 years, this finally sobered me up. I had a really good job that I wanted my whole life, great family life when I wasn’t drinking, great kids and everything was looking bright for the future. Something felt empty or missing inside me so I filled it with booze, my family started to be concerned with my drinking so I started to hide it. One thing led to another and I ended up slapping the love of my life while our six month old was in the room while I was around .26. I wish I could go back in time and take it all back, set down the booze, go to therapy, maybe realize that my job was turning me into an angry person but I can’t. Im trying to own this mistake and become a better person through it but at the end of every day I just feel like my life is over. I’ll never be able to have the job I had or anything like it ever again, I’ll never be able to have the same plans for the future that I was planning, I just fucked up real bad and I can’t look at myself in the mirror anymore. I just wanted to see what you guys would have to say to a guy like me.