I was invited by primordial truths. I'm not sure if I'm in the right place or have anything to offer. I will stick around and see if we can come to terms. Hopefully it will be a mutually beneficial relationship. I'm hopes of this I will introduce myself so you can have a better understanding of who or what I am.

I was raised Catholic and bought in fully. By the time I was 9 I had the entire mass(ritual) memorize. But 12 it got boring, I recognized that it was a repeating yearly pattern. For some this is all they need or want out of a believe system, look at the vedas and the complex rituals within. What I learned was the main point of any ritual is to make you feel something as in feel a certain way. The world around us is produced by our feelings or emotional state.

At about 14 I started reading occult books and at 16 I delved into witchcraft, which I practiced till about 25. This taught me more about rituals and the natural world. Also how everything we do is or can be a ritual. If you have a cup of coffee every morning, that is a ritual. In this practice I learned to manipulate the world around me. During this time, After leaving low magic I learned high magic and Kabbala. They are the same, they just have different planes the work is done in.

I still wasn't fulfilled, I had reached a dead end of a mastery of the arts, yet again boardem set in.

At about 25 I became a taoists. In truth o studied taoism, Buddhism, and confusious. I settled on taoism because of the focus on detail. They can get into very specific astrological alignments that might happen once in a thousand years. You might have to wait a decade to do a ritual "properly" with the correct timing. This practice taught me the importance of flow, or wo wei "non-being" a state of potential. The point of non duality between the opposite poles. Yet again I practiced for 9 years till about the age of 33.

During the end of this time I happen to find a master(a teacher). He privately tutored me for 6-8 hours a day 5-7 days a week for four years. He brought me up to masters level college classes in history, psychology and teaching with an emphasis on law. Afterwards he stated that he took me through the entire curriculum for these classes and I have the same or better education as anyone who went to a college and paid for their education but I simply don't have a piece of paper from an institution stating this fact.

At this point I started studying the Bible. I read it and the off shoots like the book of Mormon, the Jehovah witnesses literature, seventh day Adventist and the Koran to name a few. Again this took about 9 years and during this time I called myself a Christian (still do). But what IS a Christian? This is the answer I wanted to understand, the driving force behind my motivation. What I found is that not all Christians are, well Christian. Most practice some form of pagan religion based on rituals handed down from parents to children. This realization made me understand the commandment " Throw shall now use the Lord's name in vain". Calling yourself a Christian when you are not acting like one is a sin. To clarify, "sin" is an archery term used to describe missing the mark.

At 42 I started studying ancient Hebrew, the roots of the biblical narrative. Not just the words but the cultures behind those words. I found that without the cultural lens the true meaning is lost or misinterpreted. This partly why there are do many denominations. Some consider Hebrew the language of the angels. I believe this is so. It is also a sign language and can be spoken with jestures. This connects back to witchcraft and kabbalah. The rituals were to teach the next generation the proper way to speak to the universe but somewhere along the line the true meaning was lost.

During this whole time I delved into and out of alchemy. That is a subject for another place and time. But I will share this. The blood and bread of the last supper were made from Jesus's own body. In Greek Christos means oil, I have separated red oil that looks like blood, big isn't from my own body. It has therapeutic effects. I have also separated salts that look like the host or Eucharist of the mass, Anyway I degrees.

For the last year or so I have started studying Sanskrit and the vedas. I would recommend the upanishads to anyone seeking knowledge or understanding of the universe and their place in it. It completely supports the biblical narrative. There are some cultural differences but that is to be expected given the time elapsed between their writings.

Anyway, this just scratches the surface of who I am. If I am not a good fit for this forum just let me know and I will continue on my journey elsewhere. I do have strong options but I remain flexible and open to new knowledge.

*Pics 1-3 are from some hikes I went on. I live on Oahu.

Pic 4-5 is Christ oil and the bread or Eucharist almost done. For those interested.

I wish thee well on your journeys