I am starting to freak out about the way I feel all the time. I can feel pressure in my lower stomach recently when I lay flat. But I also have hyperemesis gardvium pretty bad so I haven’t put on any weight yet. Last ultrasound I had everything looked good and he was measuring a couple days ahead but that was a while ago, and my next OB appointment is the anatomy scan on may 25. I’m kinda worried because I am really not eating all that much still and I go to the hospital for fluids once a week still. (Last ER visit the IV blew my left vein out and it’s still healing rn)

I just don’t even want to get bigger and give birth at this point like I want to just faint and pass out and let my entire existence leave my body when I think about all the needles and shit that is going on around me and my boyfriend standing there watching me freak the fuck out no I don’t know what I’m gonna doooooooo