I am currently 19 years old, later this year ill be officially 20. I am a (hopefully) soon graduating sophomore, about to transfer to another college (also very hopefully) with an associate's degree. I've been living and under the custody of my father my whole life, and have been wishing for ways to get away from him since I was a child. Summary of him: Mentally, Verbally, at times Physically abusive, most likely narcissistic, very authoritarian parenting, and very controlling of incoming funds, and other aspects of life. Mother is far worse. Can't go to mom because she is a raging alcoholic for years, has possibly moderate-severe bipolar disorder, doesn't/ has never worked (or for long periods of times before I was born), and is 0000 two-faced and mentally abusive. Just no.

I'm at a point now where I'm working and get paid weekly. I make $15/hour and work super close to my current living space. I live in New York City, and I already know getting into a "decent" apartment or place to live feels and seems very close to impossible without sacrificing the safety of self, neighborhood, and living in deplorable conditions.

I don't have a credit card so I cant build credit, I cant move in with friends and people I know because they are also struggling and have large families, making JUST enough income for themselves and parents are also toxic. I'm not sure if I can wait much longer to see if I can hopefully dorm in a college soon, if I'm even accepted in any college at this point, vs just trying to find an apartment/ roommate to live with.

I don't know what to do, feel like I'm losing my mind the more I stay near/ around his vicinity. Any advice/ resources/ or anything to help me not put myself in a psych ward, how to increase income, and make it through school?