Not sure if this is an appropriate question for this sub but hopefully it is, I’ve recently realized that as a result of relying on porn or pleasing my partner my whole life I’ve never actually been able to figure out what I’m into sexually.

I started watching porn years before I actually experienced sexual feelings, and I’ve always felt totally disconnected from my body as a result of it. I was always able to get off to porn by forcing myself to, but very little of it ever genuinely appealed to me…

Even with previous partners I always pictured myself from a third person perspective to get off bc that’s what my brain always thought sex was. Now I’m single and trying to figure out how to be in touch with my body by fantasizing or thinking about what I would like, but I have no idea how to make that enough to get me off.

I’ve always had a very low sex drive and don’t just get turned on organically, I don’t know if that’s a result of porn or a hormonal issue or what… Any ideas for figuring out what I like and rebuilding my relationship with my own body and my own sexuality?