The urges getting stronger is not a bad thing if you think about it the right way. Its a buildup of chemicals, sure, but it is also a buildup of emotions, and if theres one thing were all lacking as porn addicts its just that. Emotions!! Emotions are the key! If the urges are strong one day that means your emotions are firing again; you just need to point them in the right directions. Watch; I had a hard time growing up in my teens--i was bullied, rejected, left struggling to live a fulfulling life many times. I spent a lot of time numb and depressed, time I wont get back. I will get better but the pain of this time has followed me to the present day. But that will not stop me from untangling the cobwebs in my mind and just typing this out and feeling and expressing my feelings as opposed to running away--thinking I'd sound annoying or too sensitive or like im playing a victim--no this time im doing this instead--expressing myself, even if i have to 100 more times.