Years, YEARS of knowing of my problem with this, and finally I have deleted it all. I cannot even begin to think about all that space I have accumulated with this junk food. I have to give a shoutout to a recent post I saw here or maybe it was r/nofap where he posted about how someone in the industry sees their own audience and I realize that I exist as those terrible incel memes that go around.

As much as I can complain and bitch about women, I have to be worthy of a woman's attention and affection and I am not getting that by just indulging in this junk, and that is what this is, straight-to-the-vein junk. How can I expect to have a woman come into my life with all my standards if I don't even uphold myself? I still have way more to go, I mean I've tried NNN before but like a fiend I've had my urges but I have to control them, use the energy and time I would have dedicated to pleasuring myself to other productive things.

I'm currently unemployed, studying to get the CCNA, COMP A , and Network certificates so I can get back out there and face the world head-on. While I do that might as well prepare myself in other ways as well, all the free time I have now is going to actually give the gym a try and work a bit harder on myself. I just feel so free that I have deleted all that porn, it is just a start, but it's a good one.