You guys here have always been so nice and I'm way too embarrassed to talk about my situation with anyone I know. I work full-time. Come June I will be with my employer for 10 years now. As of April 1st here in CA I make less money than the starting wage at all fast food places. Am I really going to have to leave my job to go flip burgers to get a leg up? Living here is so crazy! I don't have the time or desire to get into my entire background but I am a legal immigrant, I moved here when I was 17, I have a green card, I pay my taxes, I don't feel like I'm particularly wasteful but somehow I live paycheck to paycheck. I know I have it better than a lot of people. A good 5k and I could pay off all my debts, but I have no way to receive anywhere near that sum of money. My living situation is getting out of hand and I'll probably buy out of a home soon enough. I pay $1315 to rent a room in a house, never been late or short but the master tenant I rent from is on a real power trip lately and is trying to make living here unbearable without having to pay to evict me. I'm just tired of feeling like I failed at being an adult. Some days I can stay positive, be thankful for what I have and that I'm not way more in debt than I am, but some days, when I'm hungry (I have food but no appetite due to stress) and miserable and don't have anyone to talk to it's hard to stay positive. Going to go buy 3 lottery tickets. $6 is a small price to pay for a chance a life altering money. Even if I just won $1000 it would be major. Wish me luck. (I don't play the lottery often but it's over a billion rn) Edit - I am so overwhelmed by all the messages and comments and words of encouragement. I appreciate of of you taking time to say those things and make suggestions and try to help me out. I'm feeling a lot better right now. I get a monetary bonus for making it 29 years at my job so in a couple months it'll be do or die. Time for me to move on and start a new chapter in my life. Sorry if I didn't respond to everyone. But you are all appreciated.🫶🏽