I've struggled to post this because I don't have the right words to convey all the emotions I feel. I've dipped into a bit of depression and simultaneously my husband started dating his dream girl. Neither caused the other, it's just bad timing.

I'm happy for him and can't discuss the duality of feeling happy for him and hateful towards myself because he'll take it as me being jealous and wanting to stop this new relationship.

Honestly, what I feel is a type of envy you might have for a celebrity. I don't feel threatened, but I wish I had xyz that they have or are.

What are some tips for processing this envy? I am currently working on myself, but I'm far from where I want to be in quite a few categories. Are there ideas for a quick boost to get over this hump?