I, 32TF, have never been in a relationship before, but began speaking to a couple, 38M & 28F, about 6 weeks ago. We all clicked right away, and I have never had such easy conversation with another person, let alone 2 people. We are long distance, so they invited me to go stay the weekend with them about a month ago, and we had an amazing time.

Afterwards, we still talked a lot, but the conversation fell off because they were very busy. I let my insecurities start to get the better of me, but I was able to keep it mostly together until last weekend.

We met up again last weekend, and again had an amazing weekend together. Until the last night, we were fooling around in the tub, and we went to shower before getting into bed. I was in the shower last, but when I got out everything died down, and I thought I did something wrong.

I ended up leaving in the middle of the morning before they got up and left them a stupid note and left without saying goodbye or talking things through with them. I doubled down on my stupidity by breaking things off with them through text the next day by blaming them instead of taking a bit of responsibility. They pointed out that everything was great on their end and I was in the wrong with my insecurity and my lack of communication and blaming them instead, and I realized they were completely right.

I am a wreck, and I don't know what to do. I want them back, but understandably I think I might have just torpedoed this thing yet I'm just not ready to let those dreams die yet. They are everything that I want.

What can I do? I want a second chance. I want to try and fix things between us. They will be back up my way next weekend, and IDK if I should ask them sooner or later if they'd let me buy them a meal or drink to talk when they are back up this way. Or if I should drive down there this weekend, get a hotel, and tell them I am there and wanted to talk.

Any advice would be so much appreciated! Thank you!