Sup playas welcome to my post ;) Isnt it crazy how some random thoughts of some random person are now inside your mind? I literally just penetrated you. Like wtf?? I'm typing on a screen, hitting send, and tiny particles go zipping around at the speed of light ending up directly into other people's minds. This craaazzy tech at the touch of my fingers and the best my little lizard mind can think to do with it is find someone to touch my genitals. Shameful lol.

Anyways! Since this is a long shot anyways I figured id just run with it and shoot my shot! Well I can't actually run with shit because I'm crippled AF lol. C-5/6 incomplete spinal cord injury in 2003. I'm quadriplegic, attorney, married, home owner, tatted, goofy and hilarious, and just an all around top-notch human being. Thoughtful, caring, kind, smart, loyal, everything you ever want in a man. But despite all this all that really matters is the first thing: I'm crippled AF.

I now find myself thrust into the world of polyamory, and I'm having a pretty shit time with it lol. I've only ever known monogamy so I'm lost. I hate dating, it's hard and frustrating and I have to take copious amounts of prejudice on the chin like a champ. Despite all of this I forget fearlessly into the abyss to search for that which may never exist.

To me, so far, ENM and polyamory have presented as endless, short, meaningless connections. This is bullshit and I don't want any of that nonsense. I'm totally great, and my time is precious, and I'm really not trying to invest myself in a bunch of random chicken heads that just want me to entertain them. I ain't living in no friend zones being nobody's text slave. I refuse to debase myself just for the privilege of a person's presence. Respect fam!

In light of the facts above, I've decided that if polyamory/enm is going to work for me, I am looking for just one other person to share years of my life with. Looking at this potential situation from an outside observers perspective, I would have to nominate the situation as 'man wants two wives'. And this sounds ridiculous. But this is the situation, and I'm not the type to give up on anything without giving it an honest attempt.

Here's what's up. I love my wife to death forever. She's amazing, and I have no doubts that we both want to spend our lives together. She has very non-monogamous roots and tendencies, never intended on marrying, but I stole her heart and we've got that good good forever love. But as we've progressed, we've both realized that being with a disabled person can be extremely limiting. She's missing out on so many wonderful things in life by choosing to be with me, and if she's able to get those things through non-monogamy, then I'm ethically bound to do it. Her happiness means everything to me.

But she can't do it alone!! Galavanting with a lover while your crippled husband just sits at home missing you isn't anyone's keys to happiness. So I need someone of my own. I'm partial to big tiddie goth girls, but I'm open to anything. Little tiddies are fine too. I just want someone to love with intensity. Someone who cares for me deeply, and that I can care for in return. I do not want an endless string of fleeting love. Why would people want to do that to themselves?? It sounds just terrible!!

So yes.im looking for one committed long term relationship to go along with the one long term committed relationship I've already got. Preferably with a goth baddie but I'll talk to any attractive lady who thinks that this sounds good to them. Don't worry I'm definitely not settling my hopes too high but I can't not try.

I'm 38, live in San Diego, and am totally willing to develop things long distance. Must be willing to travel!! I'll even cover it cuz I'm a crilpy boi and definitely not coming to you ;)