Looking back, there were so many red flags. I won't go into details, and while at first I was devastated, even then there was this huge sense of relief.

Now, I'm planning on a two day stay with a girl who I very much like this upcoming week and I am incredibly excited. We communicate well and I am so excited because it will also be a sleepover and I love those!

I recently had another sleepover with the other girl I've been seeing. Each know of the other, and while nothing is official yet, I have such strong feelings for them both that far surpass anything else I've experienced.

One of the things my ex complained about was me "talking about myself" too much. The only things I brought up were the new (fairly substantial) medical diagnoses' I've gotten in the past year. Lupus was the first diagnosis this year and it causes me bad brain fog at times. I also tend to think about what I'd like to say, and it can take me anywhere from 30 seconds to a minute or so to respond to questions regarding myself or my emotions. He told me that this was annoying.

Feeling insecure at an earlier part of the day and each girl told me they want to be here for me in any way they can. I am just this huge mushy mess in the best way. (I know this could be and probably is NRE, but I think all of us will come out the other side minimally scathed).

This is the first time I've ever had a one on one relationship with a woman, and I somehow convinced another to take a shot at romance with me. Both situations are casual dating, I can imagine if things ever became official i will post an update.

Thank you all for helping me get through an incredibly rough breakup, and for giving me the realization of just how awful and cowardly my ex is/was. I owe a lot to this sub, truly and sincerely. I am feeling happiness like I havent felt in years.

I feel free. I feel loved. I feel like me.