So as the title says it's been months that I kinda suspected and I didn't want to pry because it's my gf's business. But it got me worried also. Although given how things are with my gf I shouldn't have to worry cos she is constantly reassuring me and telling me she still loves me. However there is that lingering feelings of what if....

I feel vulnerable because honestly the polyamory pool in my country here is next to nothing while it's plenty where my gf is based. Having someone local would be nice and would make me feel a whole lot safer.

I keep telling myself I shouldn't have to worry but I am worried because I'm tired of the dating game and honestly my gf has been a precious gem to me so far in the last 3 years. She's been doing right by me so far with consistency and assurance. Anyway just wanted to put these thoughts out somewhere cos no one else in my circle understands why I would even involve myself in a polyamorous relationship. That's a long story for another day. In the meantime I'm just needing some encouragement and support. Thank you