I'm just venting. This timing is horrible.

I'm engaged and getting married in less than a month, and I've also been dating a wonderful woman since January. I was only her second poly relationship but we were very communicative and I genuinely thought things were going really well and she was happy. Very suddenly in the past few days she started thinking about things and acting different and then yesterday she ended it. Completely blindsided me. I am so in love and I am utterly heartbroken. I forgot that there is pain that hurts this bad and this constantly. I can't escape it for a second.

I'm also graduating on Friday. And just two days ago she said she wanted to come, which I was really happy about and felt pride at how proud she was of me.

I don't know how to go through this grief and also graduate and get married. This was supposed to be a busy but joyful month and now it feels like everything is poisoned. I am so fucking miserable.