This is going to be super sporadic because l'm a super insecure person but here we go... My partner and I are only seeing each other at the moment. We've had quite a lot happen around us and the stress has taken over our lives etc. Now finding other partners hasn't ever been a high priority for me, I'm very much "I'll meet them when the time is right". I'm not sure about him though, again not enough time to explore properly because of life. I digress... Recently I've become even more insecure about my body than normal and I don't know why but whenever my partner looks at instagram and it's full of models or half naked people with specific fetish type outfits on or styles that I know he likes, it makes me feel crappy about myself and insecure. I've told him about it before and it didn't go well. Ended up being me on the receiving end of "why are you so controlling? I'm poly l'm supposed to be able to look at other people and find them attractive without you feeling uncomfortable etc". I guess it hurts most because most of them aren't as big as me and don't have things on their body that make me feel like my body is okay (trying to not mention the insecurities). I guess I want help dealing with the situation? I don't want to be paranoid every time he is checking his phone, I'm tired of feeling I'm not attractive enough and it's going as deep as me thinking that whenever we're being intimate and he's closing his eyes, I feel like he's thinking about someone else because I'm not good as the people on his phone etc.