Hey guys, i am getting annoyed with myself again. Me and my nesting partner are in a commited relationship since over four years. She had multiple dates and casual lovers since we more or less opened up. I on the other hand didnt get much interest at all. I dont know how or where to meet people face-to-face so i used online dating, with practically no matches at all and the few i got stopped talking after like two messages. this really tanked my selfesteem tho and threw myself back into depression quite a bit so i stopped everything a few months ago. I still have the want of meeting other people and having something casual but i am not sure how or what to do, i am trying my best to surpress anything but it always surfaces again and really gets on my nerves. I wanted to just be mono-poly but i cant fully let it go sadly. Because i didnt have any success(i didnt even talk long enough to anyone to have one date) i just want to let it go and accept that my youth is over(very soonly im 29) and the time where i would have been able to meet random people and stuff is just gone. What am i supposed to do in this situation? For the record, i am in psychotherapy for a long time by now. My therapist thinks, i am a charming person and in real life that should work but at the same time she think i might also dont show my interest so people maybe dont know i am interested? I dont know i just want to get rid of it tbh