In November I started working again for the first time in 3 or 4 years. And I was worried at that time that it would end by secondary or part time relationship. But I love him, we've been seeing each other for over 2 years and I just can't imagine life without him.

I had a friend, pursue me, at the same time. She and I started dating a little over a month ago after we both acknowledged it was not a good time to start a relationship for each of us.

Then there is my primary and that is my rock; my solid relationship.

Anyway between work and these three relationships and trying to have some sort of social life outside my relationships I feel I am going to crash, mentally. I was previously worried I wasn't being fair to date these other two people without the capacity to give much. But now tonight, after a really stressful day, I feel I am being unfair to myself.

I want to focus on reestablishing a career, and that is going to take time. I'm going to tell them both that I want a pause. That all I'm good for is occasionally hooking up.

I guess I'm wondering how to do this without hurting them, but I need to stop hurting.myself.