I (25NB) have been with (29M) for 7 years, and we are engaged. I now have a gf (22F) of 1 month, and things have been going well so far. both of them hold no jealousy about me having another partner, but I have this horrible sense of guilt. I feel like I'm cheating, which isn't and was never true. sometimes I'm so happy, but sometimes I feel so guilty I get nauseous and cry. is this normal? will it pass? or is poly just not for me? I have the capacity to love two people without it affecting my love for the other person, but this sense of guilt feels horrible. and now that things are starting to feel more official with gf, I'm worried about how I should go forward. at this point I'd really hurt both of us if I cut this off, but I also don't know if I can deal with this aching feeling. I've told my fiance about this feeling and he reassured me that I'm not hurting him and I don't have to feel guilty but I just can't seem to shake it.