We separated in December but we talked a lot and we love each other, we don't want to lose our relationship, we're very good friends, we became family and our sex life was completely dead.

He went back to his country and I stayed where we used to live together.

Today we spoke and I asked how was de online dating going and he said he got in contact with this girl he had met when he was a teen, friend of a friend or something along the lines.

He never thought she would like him because she is very pretty but then they matched on Tinder and they have been speaking, they will have a date in a couple of days.

I'm happy for him, he is a special guy, but I feel like shit for me. I feel very lonely, stuck and nobody even looks at me, I put on 22 pounds and I'm 7 years older than my husband...

I feel like there's no chance in hell for me, like no one is going to like me or love me ever... As I'm older (not in my 20s anymore, I'm 36).

The only thing I get in dating apps is weird guys that have no conversation at all and want me to basically make them laugh, send them pictures and not even bother on actually connecting with me, the other day I got this guy, he was flirting with me and then he send me a video of him in the shower when I had told him already I'm not interested on thst kind of thing.

I miss connection so much that I'm even fantasising of friends with benefits I had when I was younger :S (and they weren't even good people)

Before my husband told me about this girl I notices he didn't put too much effort on talking to me anymore or sending me little messages for when I wake up...

I guess I'm old news... Sorry... I'm really struggling... Also I'm a demisexual, I don't feel cut up for this.

I would really appreciate some advice on how to deal with this or even some words of friendship or whatever because I'm about to cry.