I have no one to call after

Im left here with my spirit tattered

Knowing I'm not alone I wish I felt the ladder

Frustration builds even though I know none of it really matters

And then of course the glass shatters An I feel bad after,

Don't know How to recover, come to think Im sure God has the answers I'll run for cover I'm hurt

It's never ending, im bad at pretending Wanna revel and bask forget all the bad

I do what I can I'm sorry I'm only a man Don't need me a friend

I just need The empathy compassion some Warmth a hug maybe give a fuck lately

I'm nasty feel like everybody hates me I'm local venom a societial issue I hate it, I wish it wasnt this way

When I found her I thought I could escape This i hate this life I'm sick of the repetitive

To me love is everything and it's grief They don't get it how much it hurts when she leaves,

hell don't know how to recover from that ever it sucks it puts me in a struggle

I can't move on she saved me just to break me, showed me I'm crazy the holes in my walls speak for themselves

I'm not living in hell I fucking do what I can to be well but it sucks I'm fucked its pain genuine

there's no end its relentless god if there was ever a time its now to send it,

these tears been welling for days im always hungry disgusted disgraced