Yesterday I crossed over half a million downloads of The Manwhore Podcast and locked down a relatively big sponsorship deal for the next 6 months. I'm at an all-time high support on Patreon with 80 fanwhores saying they value what I'm doing. Feeling really good right now as I wake up not at an office job.

I've been working really hard for 3 years pumping out a new episode EVERY week for 152 consecutive weeks—not including the dozens of bonus episodes I produce every month for paid subscribers. All of this with no podcast network, no co-host, no team, and no previous fan base. Building from scratch all by myself with the suggestions of some gracious folks.

It's been really hard and I've had to sacrifice a lot—often I've had to sacrifice time on stage or brain power being funny and writing jokes. I sometimes feel uncertain about what I'm doing with comedy, if I'm doing enough or if the show previous day job girlfriend is a valid justification for being in a valley. Then I remember that every week I perform for way more people than I ever would if I went and did 10 open mics and half a dozen bar shows week in and week out. It's just a different muscle! Some are working out their comedy biceps and I'm just like, "Nah, I'm good with this thighmaster over here."

Yea, I have to take some shit from comics for the "manwhore" stuff and endure some bleh AIDS orgy jokes. And yea I could have been a stronger stand-up if the past 3 years had focused on jokes instead of sex-positivity and podcasting. And yea, talking about my out there sex life is probably all a way to shove my dick into the newsfeeds of people who bullied me from the ages of 6-17 as if to say, "No! I swear! I'm having sexxx!"

I'll likely always be some "problematic, rape-apologist misogynist" bro to the sensitive, sex Jezebel-rimming bloggers and a liberal PCfaggot cuckboy to a faction of comedy people. The people who truly know me are the ones who listen to me talk for an hour every week or who've known me for years. I'm just gonna be me, whatever that is.

EDIT: I wanna throw a thank you to everyone who helped me out on this subreddit over the years. I'm a tech moron so I actually wouldn't have been able to do it without the help, support, and savvy of this sub. It's because of you all that I'm going to record myself getting a happy ending massage next week. <3