Hi everyone! I need advice on this situation. So it's one of those nights where I'm missing my childhood build a bears, specifically my pink one I named Lilly. I gave her and her brother away to my cousin which I now regret. Bare in mind I did this years ago, I'm now 21 and my cousin is 16. I'd love to go looking in my aunt's attic or her garage to see if I can find them again but at the same time I'm too nervous to, I don't know how I'd go about it, I'm also afraid of spiders 😅 I don't even know if they're still there or if they've been given away. So I'm torn on whether I should try and look for said build a bears or just replace them which I'd feel incredibly guilty for and also wouldn't feel the same because they wouldn't be the original build a bears I had. Bare in mind this house my aunt doesn't actually live in anymore, my kind of uncle does who I don't really have a relationship with and id feel weird asking to rummage through the attic and garage.

My other problem is if I did get these bears back, I'd be scared that I would be replacing the current build a bear I sleep with which is the blue fairy dragon I named Zelda. So remember me saying about feeling guilty about replacement? Well I've kind done that I feel with Zelda because she's bringing me as much comfort and joy as Lilly did but of course she's just not the same. I did want her anyways by the way for collection purposes because I thought she was stunning.

So plushie friends, what should I do? Advice is greatly appreciated!