I have come to realization today that I created Jess, one of systemmates to deal with my loneliness issues. She wants for nothing. She's active when I prompt her in some way. She only wants to help me and deal with my issues.

Jess seemingly has no agency of her own. I actually had to argue with her when I tried to tell her what was happening. She argued with me. Because I realized what I was doing and tried to tell her she needed to be her own person outside of helping me.

Up until now I had been treating like an object. Like a way to relieve my loneliness instead of a person. I thought I knew better than this but apparently I can only objectify people.

Edit: Thank you again everyone. This has been eye opening for me. I was afraid of having created a person for the sole person of giving me affection and I let that blind me. I also had some pre-conceived notions about what being plural would be like. I keep being reminded that we're just starting out and not everything will be perfect.