18 years ago today, my dad dropped me off with his rv at the RV park on Rockwell, south of I40, I reported to my new job at Oklahoma Tax Commission the next day, Oklahoma City Oklahoma.

18 years later, I am worse off than if I’d stayed in Woodward. Now I don’t have a home or family to return to. I should have done what I thought about & joined the military. Wish I’d done it at 18. I could probably be on my third retirement by now. I might have a better relationship with my daughter & have a granddaughter to look forward to arriving in February. I’d still be pissed at my mom for remarrying husband #1/3. Or maybe if I’d been there I could’ve stopped it. I could have spent the last 5 years of my life taking care of my dad. My house would be paid for because he stipulated that in the will.

I’m ready to start over. Anywhere. I’m just not ready enough to do it without a kick in the ass.

Fuck Employees Group Insurance Division for helping ruin my life. In particular Lezli.Jones, Cassie.Waters, Diane.O’Niell and Michelle.Trammell. You’re all lucky I don’t have black magic powers. May as well throw in Catherine.Blevins for hiring me in the first place, Terry.Ham for making empty promises to hire me in MV, & Russ.Nordstrom & the head of HR for holding me back. Oh and let’s not forget Michelle.Harrison for making it so miserable to work at the tax commission that I left the agency. And a special fuck you to OMES. And while he shall remain nameless, the guy who suggested moving here to have a better life, job, love & all that shit.

Yeah it was my choice. If I could go back in time, I would have not followed that advice.

I’m out of this god forsaken state in the spring. Maybe Oregon if not Florida. Taking my depressed ass back to bed.

Another thing… I contacted GHSV2 in 1996. I got laid more in my hometown of maybe 15k at the time than now. So thanks Yahoo for selling the dating section to Match.