I'm not kind, wala akong pake sa ibang tao. idk if ako lang but i found being kind and helpful so cringe. like i literally go on my day lang. siguro due to battles in life or ganito na talaga kasi ako even nung bata pa.

so here it is. this was way back senior high ako. papasok ako sa school and kailangan kong tumawid ng overpass kasi sa kabila yung sakayan. so may napansin akong girl like siguro mga 30 years old na yun. nasa gilid lang siya ng hagdan ng overpass. i found her weird kasi tinatapik-tapik niya yung dibdib niya and she was breathing heavily. so normal me, i ignored her. umakyat ako ng overpass and walking na sa platform pero nilingon ko siya and she was still there but still, i ignored. i took some steps pa before i stopped and sighed kasi male-late na rin ako that time. so yah, binalikan ko siya sa baba ng overpass and asked if there's a problem. and she said, she has fear of heights and her trembling is no joke. and hirap na hirap ako but I managed to ask if she wants me na alalayan siya hanggang makatawid. she happily said yes kahit nung una hesitant pa kasi takot talaga. so habang tinatawid namin yung overpass, ang higpit ng hawak niya sa akin which I normally don't like kasi ayaw ko na may humahawak sa akin. but i let her and i can feel yung panginginig niya. tapos sabi niya "baka ma-late ka na" and I am so eager to say "late na talaga ako" pero I just said "ok lang po" tapos naitawid ko na siya. she's about to give me money pa kasi dudukot sa wallet pero tumalikod na ako and binilisan na lakad kasi late na ako.

until now, kapag all of the people around me tingin sa akin masama, iniisip ko lang yung interaction na yun.