Hai Gwais! 22(M) here. Ewan ko lang gusto ko lang ilabas ung sama ng loob or kung tatawagin mo man siyang ganun.

Naweweirduhan na ako sa sarili ko kasi sa totoo lang, alam mo yung feeling na you want to feel loved, cared, value by a person. Yung kapuyatan, handang mapuyat para samahan ka or magpupuyat ka para sabayan schedule niya. Once in a while, checking kung anong kalagayan mo. May messages na out of the blue. Yung mapapa I am enough, I am loved, I am important ka sa sarili mo.

Pero yun I tried naman na bumalik sa isang RS, go on dates, tried to entertain pero super bilis ko ma "Bored" or like di mainteresado. My friends told me na give them like a chance naman daw. What if sila din ung makapagbigay ng like that excitement na meron ako before when going inside a relationship. I tried pero wala talaga promise.

Then one day, I met this guy. You can say na the first time na napansin ko siya, its weird af na to the point na hinahanap ko siya kahit wala kaming naging interaction. He's my co-worker. I really admire him. Besides I really like how he looks, how he presents himself. I really love how he interacts with his friends, and how reserve he is sa ibang tao na hindi niya ganung kaclose. That really stood up para sa akin.

I tried na like iwasan ung feeling pero para akong tinamaan ng pana ni cupido, which is hindi naman dapat kasi after ako lokohin ng ex ko, I got tired of like giving someone my heart and entrusting it to them pero to him there is this feeling na like "PAST LIFE" Connection as they call it.

Gusto ko lang ilabas here.