Hello! 👋

I’ve been a long-time lurker here, and honestly, I’m a bit hesitant to post this. But with the year coming to an end, I wanted to put myself out there. As the title suggests, I know this subreddit might not be the perfect place for this kind of post, considering the number of hookup and casual encounter posts (no judgment here, it’s just not for me 😅). But I’m hoping to step into 2025 with meaningful goals, including forming genuine connections and having sfw chats with someone who might share similar values.

To share a little bit about me, I'm a 23 y/o guy from Pampanga. I’m into movies and TV shows, especially sitcoms. I’m also a creative soul who likes to work on illustrations and graphic design, though lately, I’ve been focusing more on UI/UX design. As for video games, I mostly play mlbb nowadays.

I didn’t come from one of the “big 4,” but I’ve made the most of my situation and am proud of how far I’ve come. Oh, and I'm 5'6" and, for compatibility’s sake, probably a bottom. As mentioned, I'm not into hookups or casual encounters, so if that's something you're looking for, I might not be the right fit.

If you’re still here, thanks for sticking around! Fair warning tho, this might get long since I’ll be rambling a bit haha.

This year has been... something. I graduated from college in late August with honors, which was a significant milestone for me. However, I’m still in the process of landing my first entry-level job. In the meantime, I've been keeping busy with freelancing, working on my portfolio, and preparing for 2025.

I’ve always been introverted and a bit of a hermit. I keep a small but close circle of friends, and I’m usually not the first to start conversations. I’m much better at expressing myself through writing, I guess, since it helps me organize my thoughts and feels a lot more natural to me than talking in person, maybe. That said, I still genuinely enjoy conversations, especially meaningful ones with someone I feel comfortable with.

College was a time of growth for me, and with the support of close friends, I gradually started to come out of my shell. There were moments when I could have pursued relationships but I always hesitated. Part of me wanted to stay focused on my studies, while another part felt unsure and still in the process of self-discovery.

I’ve also actually never dated anyone before. I’m not entirely sure what to expect or how things are supposed to go, which was a part of why I was hesitant to do so, because I'm afraid I'd mess up.

Now, I know I’m definitely interested in guys. But as someone who’s not out yet—to my family or friends—it’s been a lonely experience. I’ve chatted with strangers online to fill that gap, but it’s not the same as having someone who truly understands and cares. I hope to come out someday, but right now, I’m just not ready.

Anyways, loneliness has taken a toll on me, and as a coping mechanism, I found myself turning to porn. At first, it felt harmless, but over time, it became something unhealthy. What started as occasional curiosity turned into a habit, multiple times a day, every day. I began seeking more content and ended up feeling drained, unmotivated, envious, and guilty.

But I’ve realized that this isn’t the life I want for myself. I want to change. In 2025, I’m determined to better myself physically, mentally, and emotionally. But I know I can’t do it entirely alone, which is why I’m here.

If you’re in a similar situation or if you’d just like to build a genuine connection, feel free to message me! I’d love to have someone to talk to regularly, share how our days went, discuss random topics, or just exchange silly thoughts.

I’m a night owl so I'm usually most active during late hours or right before heading to bed, so if you’re also someone who’s up at odd hours, we might get along pretty well. We don't have to talk all the time to the point that it feels like a chore, just constantly whenever we feel like it.

Unfortunately, I can’t voice or video call since privacy isn’t great where I am, but I’m happy to text or chat throughout the day instead.

However, for compatibility, I’d ideally prefer a top? But most importantly, I’m just looking for someone who’s patient, kind, and willing to support me on this journey. In return, I’ll do my best to brighten your day, offer a listening ear (or eye, since we’ll mostly be chatting 🤣), and be someone you can rely on.

I’ve been rambling for a while now, so I’ll stop here. If you made it this far, thank you for reading. I hope we can get to know each other better and maybe start the new year with something positive.

Happy holidays, and take care!

P.S. I’ll probably asleep after I post this, so I apologize in advance for the delayed respons 🙏