I dont know where to start. So me and the guy im dating just ended our connection - in a respectful and understanding way. It takes a lot of courage and maturity to easily accept his decision but still… that hurts! It fucking hurts to know that you’re already starting to fall for him and it’s christmas! Huhuhu

I’ve put on a lot of efforts in our dating stage and eventually hurt his feelings which is the reason why he decided to call it quits na. It was my fault. But again, i went extra miles to sincerely apologize and show him how i regret that one mistake.

Last week, we’re planning to watch a movie but my thoughtful self decided to book a hotel to surprise him instead. Come Tues, this is when the misunderstanding started. It was an outburst from me. I said hurtful words towards him. The following day at 11am he said we should stop na. I got mixed emotions and drove all the way to Pasig to see him and talk about this. I waited for 2hours and he didnt show up. I found out the he took a leave from office that day and just stayed in his room - cause maybe he’s affected too, for sure. I was so persistent to save this connection and went again to Pasig from Bacoor last Thursday. Waited from 9pm to 12mn. He showed up. For 10minutes. We talked about it and said sorry to one another. We decided to push for our Saturday plan. All i thought is that we’re okay already. I was looking forward to execute the surprise i planned since last week. I just woke up today reading a very sad message from him - to just officially end our dating. I dont know what to feel. Maybe i already had all my cries since Wednesday and got nothing left today. Or maybe it hasnt sunk in yet. Or maybe because we ended it in a polite way and it didnt feel so heavy. I dont know

So, im here to say that ill be all alone in the hotel room today. It’s in Makati. Anyone free? :(( i dont have plans on flirting so please if that’s what youre thinking. I just need some company or maybe a me time? :((

PS. No cheating issues, no 3rd party.