Im a non-passing trans woman. Mejo late bloomer na din coz i only came out as trans in my 30s and only started hormones not even a year ago. Ang hirap ng dating scene as a non-passing trans woman. Minsan iniisip ko "Will I ever find love?" Im not getting younger na din. I love my independence naman pero minsan talaga it gets so lonely. At time, sumasagi sa isip ko din how it feels like to be someone's "person" to be someone's special and significant other. Kaso ang hirap naman since being non-passing parang wala namang magkakagusto sa akin. Before I was too feminine gay kasi most gay guys want masc eh ako naman very comfortable with my femininity and ayoko naman i-compromise ang akong gender expression para lang magustuhan. Then years later, I realized im trans and have fully embraced my gender identity. Pero now naman, im not feminine enough to be noticed by guys. On top of that, di din kasi ako conventionally attractive in general haha. Chubby girl din ako. If there's something i can offer lang talaga is great conversations coz im a very opinionated person especially on current events, pop culture etc. Tsaka mejo may talino naman akong tinatago haha and a little humor to boot ranging from corny dad jokes to kanal humor to dark humor. However, siyempre you'll only get to see that if u get to know me and ma-attract ka muna sa akin kasi dun pa lang sa attraction part ligwak na akes agad. Ang bitter bitter ko nga kapag nakakakita ako ng couples doing cute couple things haha kasi inggit na inggit ako 😆 sana ako din makaranas ng ganun. I cant help but think that its what the universe wants for me. Or i dunno maybe im not ready yet? And the universe wants me to focus more on myself? Pero ang tagal ko na nagfofocus sa self ko hahaha. I dunno. Im very very confused. I guess i just want to feel loved and to love. Anyway, thats all my hanash for todays video.

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