Pa rant lang nakakabwisit siya.

So there's this "chinito" guy who ai dated in Bumble. Cute, thin, kinda femme (not that I mind) and very mice. The date was super okay (at least on my end) we had thai food and drinks tapos extended drinks sa ibang bar. Nilakad pa namin from mall to the bar lahit na naginsist ako mag grab nalang at ako na magbayad. No daw walk nlng daw para makipag usap. So ayun. Pawis na pawis ako pagdating sa bar.

We got to the bar, shared a pitcher of Amaretto ended up with him grinding his crotch on me outside the bar while I waited for mt grab to take me home. Sabi ko kasi, LTR gusto ko and I wanted to start things right. (Baka ito ung mali ko? Idek kasi he stopped contacting me na, stating ayaw na nya akong kadate coz nightshift daw ako).

Fast forward to lastnight. He must have read my post sa r4r. Nagmessage. I didnt know yet until i asked for a picture (may picture kasi ung post ko). I said he looked familiar and told him we dated na, stating what we did on the date. He remembered me. Sabi nya nagiba daw ichura ko (didnt acknowledge kasi thr pic i used sa post ko was a gym selfie and a bed selfie. Di ako banidoso to take selfies, but when i do ing pinaka madali nalang kasi no point on doing best foot forward, filters and all that shit) and his last message was "So kamusta" to that effect. I said okay lang alo then threw it all back to his face "Ikaw kamusta? Di ka nagka bf?" To that effect. Talagang nilabas ko pagkamaldita ko nakakairita lang kasi. I wish he told me what really went wrong sa date. Was i too femme for him (if so kapal ng mukha nya), was it because i was sweating like a pig when we got to the bar? (Sorry naman pawisin ako. Sanay kasi ako sa aircon - ang gago ko lang din eh hahaha). Nabobohan ka ba sakin kasi nde ako magaling sa math or sa reading and comprehension skills? (Aminado naman ako sa math..mahirap nmm tlga math eh. Ung sa reading and comprehension, sorry na. Was just excited to meet you kaya iba ung nabasa ko) Basta un. I wanted the truth and not yung "Eh kasi night shift ka" to spare my feeling parang....gago ka ba? May weekend naman para magkita. Gising ako ng umaga kasi maggym ako. Tapos ngaun we reconnected nang-ghost ka na naman?

If you're reading this, please at least tell ke in the DM's why (kahit alam kong nakablock na ako sa profile mo)

This is why i hate dating. Akala mo okay na yun pala hindi. We clicked! We had a great time! (Or at least I did)

Maybe this is just one of those times na closure isnt needed? Idk. Im just frustrated and wala akong mapagsabihan. I really liked him din kasi and I thought he liked me based on his actions. But again, the universe just LOVES to prove me wrong.