Hey guys. So just wanna hear your thoughts, or maybe find others with the same sentiments.

I guess almost all of us have been exposed to a lot of romance in the mainstream media. Kaliwa’t kanang love stories sa TV, movies, even printed media. So I [34 M] grew up to be a hopeless romantic.

Since I first fell in love in highschool, I’ve always dreamt of the perfect relationship; my own “happy ever after”. Sadly, that wasn’t the case with all my past relationships. Most of them ended horribly. The last one even gave me a lot of trauma that I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder a year after our breakup.

I’ve been single for more than 6 years. I’ve dated a handful of guys but none of them worked out.

So a while ago, I opened up to my bestfriend that I feel like the guy I’m recently talking to is slowly getting serious with me. Like I feel he’s trying to pursue me romantically. I can sense that he’s trying to make advances in the form of jokes. Then my bestfriend asked me how I feel about it. TBH, I’m not sure myself. It’s really nice to have someone to talk to consistently. But I’m worried that it might just be that, probably just missing the feeling of talking to and being with someone.

He also asked me what I wanna do with this guy, if I want to be in a relationship with him or just a situationship. This made me reflect on my “singlehood”. I realized that I’ve already been so comfortable with being single for a really long time. Having that freedom to do anything you want without having to worry about someone else. Plus hooking up with anyone I want. I’m not sure if I can give up that freedom and comfort.

Does anyone relate to my story? Has anyone got into a relationship after a long hiatus?