i am posting it here so neither my friends or family could figure out my plan. and i apologize if i do disturb anyone with this post.

ive kinda accepted that id just finish my masters and end it all right after. it disturbed me at first but when it came to the realization that i needed to do it, i felt happy. now i just anticipate finishing my undergraduate degree, then my masters in the next two years, and ending it altogether. .

i just simply think my family, my friends, and everybody in my life deserves a better person— the person I envisioned I would become when I was a kid. but sadly, I fell too close— an almost, a close call, or a missed mark. i didn't do anything illegal or bad naman. they all love me rin. but i guess i'm at a point where i think i have exhausted every emotion in me that i feel like a bit more push would be overdrive.

i don't think anybody could change my mind about it. but it fairs well for me.