okay I'll post it here. this is in response to my previous post about "missing" the ex. After my game kanina I looked at the calendar and figured na it is the 17th pala. More specifically, it has been a year and 4 months since the breakup. I don't keep tabs of dates anymore and mostly have forgotten many things about that previous relationship. Pero, there's this weird thing with my body na it reacts to certain dates and stuff.

Pero this post isn't about it. Kasi recently, parang I have come to terms with the fact na baka in my past relationship, baka ginawa lang akong rebound and placeholder ng ex ko until he met this person na he committed to (the guy he cheated on me with). Looking back, it is a possibility na I was only the one who looked forward to that relationship, and it was a difficult thing letting go of something you really wished would work out. After the breakup, we had no form of contact until now. I was blocked in all social medias with no point of reaching out. At the same time, I don't have any goals of reconnecting. I have had this inner desire to talk in person for the past few months to clear things out hoping that it will bring me a sense of closure, but now, I have made peace with the fact na baka this is it, and I won't be getting that apology anytime soon. I told myself na time will unveil everything- the answers you need and the things yoo wanted to hear.

This will probably be my last post about him. There is probably a 0.005% that he will see this. Give ko na sa self ko ang relief and acceptance that although I wanted it to be him so badly, may mga bagay lang talaga na momentary. I was put in his life to show him what love feels like, and he was put in mine to teach me what self-love is. The past year has been a difficult journey of self-reflection, accepting the breakup for the millionth time, countering numerous heartbreaks, and standing up and choosing myself every single day. Give ko na sa self ko ang happy ending that I deserve. They say nga, "his happy ending wasn't my sad ending, it was just a different ending" and if ever we never cross paths again, I hope you know that I regret nothing.

ayun, I hope I don't post anything like these again lol. I just need to let this one go, for the last time. Thanks to everyone who always impart something. it really helped me with coping. I'll probably delete this one later.