some post-nut clarity thoughts, but when did dating in our community feel so lonely? You get into relationships hoping to find love but all you get is hurt, and long-term self issues.

Let's face it, being an effeminate gay really is difficult especially in today's society where being masc and only the attractive guys get it. We are in a society where bl series and gay dating is so glamorised that we forget the essence of why we date- to find love.

People date for temporary pleasure or momentary satisfaction and leave you when things get a little bit shaky. Worse thing someone you once loved could do, is probably betray you.

We stay single in the hopes of going through healing the hurt that we never asked for, but there are still times when I ask, why do I still feel unhappy? Why is this state of healing so lonely, and so depriving of enjoyment? I think that's the issue siguro. Walang kayang manakit sakin kung single ako pero nakalimutan kona kung sino ako nang hindi pa ako nasasaktan.

I've forgotten what my life was without the hurt. But then how can you be reassured when the relationship you have with yourself becomes worse than one you could have with someone else? Then, is being unhappy alone really better than being unhappy with someone else?