I (M21) had this guy (M30) who courted me for 3 months. Mahal na mahal ko siya. Sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sa kanya, I was waiting na lang for the right time to tell him "Yes, I want us to be official".

We had our arguments and all, nareresolve naman namin agad. Yung pinakahuling away namin was the worst. Umabot siya sa point na he asked for space. A week after, he eventually told me na di na niya ako liligawan dahil daw he wants to find happiness with himself again (madami nangyari sa buhay niya prior meeting me).

Masakit yung breakup sobra kasi ready na ko nun eh. I was ready to commit. I even tried and told him baka pwede pa mag-iba decision niya, na baka he can find the happiness with me still being by his side. Di na raw talaga magbabago isip niya. Wala akong magawa kundi tanggapin yung nangyari.

I still love him. I even plan on courting him after a few months. But who knows, maybe I'll feel differently sa future.

Right now I'm just writing a journal. I would also play online games from time to time para di malunod sa thoughts and emotions.

Any advice kung pano mag-move forward from this? Any advice will do :)