Hi. So yeah. Im a 24 gay guy. Yeah ako po ay NBSB. I know naman na the right one will come on the right time and place. But it takes toll sa confidence ko and self worth ko if Wala pang nagkakagusto sakin ni Isa. Di ko maranasan may manligaw or may umamin na guy na gusto nya ako. HS to college until working. Wala as in zero.

Nilalalabanan ko na lang yung lungkot by thinking na maybe God has plans for me. Di ko pa maiwasang isipin na maybe di ako kagusto gusto. Maybe no guys na type rin ako. I tried dating apps and chatted with some. But di na ako nirereplayan. I even tried battling my thirst for validation by using grindr. For a while, I felt seen. But later on, I realized grindr is nothing but a sex looking venue. I'm just a mouth and hole, that's why I stopped. With reddit naman, I became addicted in looking for a guy I can hook up with, but either they will reject me or magyeyes, pero di tutuloy. I resorted to sex and becoming a hole para lang may lumapit sakin. Ayoko na. I want to be able to experience genuine love. Hugs,kisses, holding hands, dates, kwentuhan, and admiration to a partner. But, no guys are seem interested to me.

I wanna be confident pero nilalamon ako ng kalungkutan at self doubt kasi walang nagkakagusto sakin. Idk kung ano mangyayare sakin.

Wala lang. Gusto kong ilabas tong lungkot ko. I feel like I'm not worth risking for or worth having. Maybe I'm just here maging friend ng iba or family ng iba. I think romantic love is not for me. Maybe off the table sya.