this is gonna be a lengthy rant so bear with me hahaha

so it's been 365 days of being single and dilig-less (hahaha). anyway ang funny kasi I try so hard na pigilan ang sarili ko to enter another hoe-phase. I mean, my last hoe-phase was way back 2021 pa (not really a hoe-phase) and is still healing from that stupid breakup kaya I vowed to stay single for now. I also don't wanna use the apps and prefer na the person I wanna hook-up with is someone who I am emotionally connected to. pero puta ang traditional ng mindset ko like who the fuck in this generation finds genuine connections so easily especially sa putanginang dating pool ng mga bading?! pero wala eh; I don't have a good history with the apps eh kaya I try to avoid it.

shuta ang lonely tsaka ang boring. I mean I get it- this was once the peace I prayed for, pero I'm still human, I also crave lambing and sex. (eme lang)

I'm probably writing this at this hour kasi sad and lonely lang ako, and baka sa morning e de-delete ko rin to lol! fuck I wanna have sex- good sex, intimate sex, and then some cuddles after. or maybe gusto kolang talaga ng cuddles. or baka someone who understands. fuck this di ako makatulog ampota.