WARNING! NSFW AND LONG POST AHEAD!

So yesterday sinamahan niya ako kunin yung blood test and xray results ko then nagpa follow-up narin ako. While waiting for my turn, he was asking if he can go with me inside. Medyo personal kase pag ganon pero wth crush ko naman siya so go lang pumayag na ako. While waiting, he's asking if when was the last time na nakapag HIV test ako. I told him naman na 2 months ago na then i asked him when was his last. Then he told me na never pa raw siya nakapag try mag test. I know naman when was his last but i asked if after the hiwalayan, meron ka pa bang encounter? He said meron daw 2 sa Canada and 1 here lang daw. I said "Weh? Di nga? 1 lang dito? Ooows?" He told me na oo daw. He wouldn't lie naman since he trusts me naman. So siyempre i believe him naman. Then i offered na magpatest kami since may testing clinic for free na malapit lang sa mall then pumayag naman siya.

So tinawag na nga ako ni doc and negative naman yung results pero nanotice niya na namumutla nga ako then heto nanaman ang extended LOA for 7 days and another tests nanaman po tayo! Then i complained about my lower back na sumasakit pag nakaupo or tumatayo then another xray nanaman tayoooooo! So another blood work and xray. Bilang andun naman na kami so ginawa narin namin yung tests and xray. Mahirap akong hanapan ng ugat sa parehong arms. He noticed na naka pikit ako then he started laughing kase takot daw ako sa needle. Then natawa nalang din yung nurse then i said "okay na? Masaya na kayo? Pwede na ba tapusin to? Baka lang naman noh at gutom na ako!" Hala tawa parin sila. Itong si ate nurse iba rin eh. Then in fairness nagawa naman ni ate sa unang try lang niya. Then, after naman nag xray na ako pero siyempre nag hintay nalang siya sa labas.

After namin sa clinic, nagpa HIV test na kami and i saw him na kinakabahan siya so ito na nga yung chance na makaganti ako then i laughed. He was asking why then i told him na takot na takot siya. Then he said "aah! Gumaganti siya!" Tinulak ba naman ako. Kaloka! So siyempre bilang ganti is tinulak ko rin siya pero medyo nanghihina na ako nun. Nasa clinic na kami then they gave us the form then the receptionist asked if mag jowa raw kami. He looked at me then said "hindi noh! Barkada ko yan!" Then si ate mong receptionist said aaah! Sige po then whispered "friend zoned?" Siyempre narinig ko yun noh! Sabi ko "sobraaa! Narinig ko yun ha! Yes magbarkada naman kase kami! Kaloka ka!" Natawa nalang si ate receptionist then said "sorry na! Char char lang!" Natawa naman tong si crush eh. Then pinalo ko siya sa braso then sabi ko "pwede ka namanag lie paminsan minsan lang! Char!' then he told me na adik daw ako. So he was called first then ako naman next. Thank God at negative naman pareho so there.

Nagpasama siya sa Rob Ermita para imeet yung college best friend niya para iabot yung pasalubong. Then tumawag yung cousin ko from the US and was asking if magkasama ba raw kami. So nag video call kami then kwentuhan. In fairness mag papadala yung cousin ko so nag request ako na Cadbury nalang mga 20pcs na malalaki. Nakipag tawaran pa 10 lang daw. Kaysa maging hangin lang pumayag na ako. Sayang naman din kase. Haha! After the call, he told me na sobrang fave ko nga yung Cadbury. I said yes naman to him. Then he asked if aside from Cadbury ano pa ba yung gusto ko. Then i jokingly said "ikaw!" Then we laughed then i told him na Hershey's w/o nuts and all. Then he told me na to open the glovebox then may chocolate dun na Hershey's. Sabi ko later nalang after ng lakad namin. Then he asked if kung ano ba raw meron sa dick at gustong gusto ng mga bex? I answered "parang straight men lang din na hayok na hayok sa keps, diba? Same explanation lang naman yun." Then he said "eh meron ka naman rin eh." Then i answered "ano to? Self suck? Acrobat mode kami pag nafeel na namin? Ganon?! Kayo? Bat di kayo magpagawa ng keps sa ilalim ng balls niyo para self lick and fuck na ang peg niyo?" Then he laughed so hard then i said "yung thrill nalang na you're doing it with a stranger diba? Like you're wondering if magaling ba yung person na yun sa bed? Or what does his dick or keps looks like? Mataba or mahaba ba yan if dick yan or if pag keps, malu ba si ate or meshikip pa? (Then natawa siya) Diba? Maganda or gwapo, maganda yung katawan, or sakto lang yan, if you're sexually attracted to them, aayan mo yan. Diba? Unless mas prefer mo nalang ngayon ang porn at ang right hand mo? Or left handed ka ba?" He answered right hand daw ginagamit niya. Then he told me na may point naman daw ako. Then he asked if may experience na ba raw ako sa straight guy. I answered naman yes to him kaso may bayad nga lang. Then he asked about a straight guy had an experience with the same, macoconsider na ba as gay yun? I answered na "IMO, if you're there for the experience lang, then no. Straight ka parin. Pero pag hinahanap mo na and it became a thing, then pwedeng curious straight ka na. Pero if you enjoy both sa male and female, you're considered as Bi. Pero pag nawala na sa system mo yung attraction mo sa females, then pwedeng gay ka na." Then he agreed naman. Then i asked him na was there a time na he wants to try it ba? He told me na when he was in Canada pa raw that time. Yun yung sa coworker niya na British. They're talking about keps and sex position and gay sex din daw pero he knew naman na his coworker is gay. Pero dumating din daw sa point that his coworker wasoffering him an experience and was teasing him daw then told him na "if you change your mind, you know where to find me." And it even came to a point na naalala niya yung convo nila regarding sex and then may one time na muntik na raw niyang imessage yung guy snd buti nalang daw tumawag yung ex wife niya. So i asked na may chance pala! Then he laughed and told me na it's a good thing na it didn't happen kase he learned that his coworker has a partner and ayaw naman daw niyang makasira ng relationship and all. And he said na it was a sign na hindi talaga for him. Like there's something that stopped me from pursuing it. Then i asked if inaya ko siya for the sake of experience lang, will you agree? Then he told me na I don't want to do it with you kase you're close to me and to my family. He doesn't want to have that awkward situation happening between us. As much as possible, he's protecting what we have right now. And if ever he wants to have that experience, then he will look for someone na hindi niya kilala. And at that he can easily forget it if ever. Pero wala naman daw siyang plan talaga na to have that kind of experience at all. He will let me know PAG dumating na raw yung time na yun. I hugged and thanked him kase for the kind thoughts and all. I answered na "tbh I'm happy kase nandun yung level of respect na binibigay mo sakin. And i would do that naman din to you. While hugging him and naka rest yung head ko sa shoulder niya, nirest din niya yung head niya on top of my head. like OMG guys kinilig ako ng malala dun. Then i jokingly said na so pwede na ba tayong mag tawagan ng babe? Then we laughed then told me na "ikaw babe in the city!" Grabe diba? I said "sobra kaaaa!" Then he laughed and grabbed me para irest yung ulo ko again sa shoulders niya.tigas ng shoulder eh naumpog ako eh. Napa aray nalang ako.

So nasa Rob Ermita na nga kami then i asked if pwedeng sa Jollibee nalang imeet para makaorder naman ako ng fam pan ko na spag. Pumayag naman siya. Then dumating na nga itong si best friend niya then nag kwentuhan sila. Nag coffee pa kami then the guy left na. Then he asked if gusto ko pa ba raw pumunta somewhere then sabi ko sa Ayala Malls pwede naman. Then nag Glorietta nga kami then na bored siya then nag MOA nalang kami. Sa Seaside nag lalakad lang kami then he asked if i have plans ba na to get married? Sabi ko yes pag legal na ang gay marriage sa pinas. Or pwedeng gusto ko nalang magka anak nalang then mag focus nalang sa anak ko. i asked him if may plan ba siya na ikasal again then he said gusto niya munang magpatest kung siya ba yung may problem or what. Then i offered na samahan ko siya if ever then he said yes naman. Then i asked kung kelan ba niya plan na pumunta ng Canada then sabi niya next month lang pero baka di rin daw siya mag tagal dun like 2 months or less balik narin daw siya dito. He's hoping na sana walang problem sa kanya para if ever magka anak pa siya. Then sabi ko don't worry! Ipray natin yan kay God and iclaim natin na walang problem! Healthy ka! Sing healthy ni junjun mo! Then namula siya then sinakal ba naman ako tapos tawa ng malakas then sira ulo daw ako then sabay akbay. Naubo nalang ako eh. Jusko yung mga tao sa paligid namin eh. Haha! Past 7pm na and mejo nagutom ako so nag aya ako ng mag mang inasal muna then nag aya siyang mag world chicken nalang daw. Sabi ko sayang yung extra rice kase pero pumayag nalang ako. Tawa nanaman siya. After namin mag dinner nag punta na kami sa parking then while walking, tumama yung kamay ko sa dick niya then napasorry naman ako. Then he said "ikaw ha! Pa simple ka diyan!" I said nooo hindi ko naman sinasadya yun grabe ka! Then he was teasing me na then he grabbed my right hand then kunwari papahawak niya uli then i was shocked and namula ako ng todo nun! Then he hugged me then said joke lang. Nasa car na kami then tahimik lang ako nun the he was nudging me and was asking if I'm okay lang ba raw then sumagot naman ako na okay lang. Then he grabbed my head papunta dun sa shoulder niya then he told me na alam naman daw niya na hindi ko sinasadya yun kase sinadya daw niya talaga yun just to get my reaction. Then i stared at him then told him na "talaga ba? So? Sinadya mo pala at natakot naman ako bigla! Jinoke mo pa na papahawak mo uli pero hindi! So? Tinease mo lang ako? Ganon? For that ipahawak mo sakin yan!" Then he was like "grabe! At least i know na hindi mo gagawin sakin yun and i feel safe with you naman! Pero sige one time big time lang pero walang awkwardan to ha?" I asked if totoo ba or joke nanaman niya. Then he said joke lang. I swear to God sinabunutan ko talaga siya. Tawa lang talaga siya ng tawa! Sarap ko raw asarin. So nasa bahay na kami then kinuha niya sa glovebox yung Hershey's chocolate then kumuha pa siya ng Cadbury sa loob then he told me na he's having a good time pag magkasama kami. Wag daw ako mapikon sa kanya kase ganyan siya sa mga close niya sa kanya. He hugged and thanked me for being there and making him comfortable since he's far from his family. I told him naman na punta lang siya sa bahay anytime if he's bored and he's a family naman to us always. Then i jokingly said na may utang pa siya sakin na hawak then he pinched my nose and cheeks then laughed. Hinatid na niya ako sa bahay then yun.

Another day, another experience with crush. Basta ineenjoy ko yung Hershey's ngayon. Bukas na yung Cadbury. Kelangan ko talaga itago yun or else mauunahan nanaman ako ni mommy. Hmp!