So, habang ginagawa thesis ko, hindi ko talaga matanggal sa isip ko yung thought I'll be graduating college without experiencing going on college dates. For some context, freshman going into 2nd year ako nung nag lockdown. When f2f classes resumed, 4th year na ako going into my 5th year because delayed student ako lol. I've only been in one 'relationship' throughout all those years which ended poorly. After that breakup, I tried putting myself out there (Bumble, Tinder, Grindr, hell I've sent dms to several crushes) but a year has passed and wala talaga hahaha. And now, as I'm crawling through my thesis while also having a full unit sem, di ko talaga matanggal sa isipan ko na parang I missed out on the college dating experience. I'm fully aware naman na hindi ako kagwapuhan, and I'm not everybody's preferred body type (bear/chub). What's frustrating is that sa campus namin, its clear that I am not the demographic kaya malabo talaga ako mag click with another guy from the same campus hahahahaha. And aamin na din ako na may inggit sa puso ko whenever I see younger guys flaunting their love in public, or when my classmates and friends flaunt their relationship on social media. Like, literally sana all nalang talaga HAHAHAHAHA. At this point, I don't even know what to do anymore. Siguro pag nag wowork na ako saka na ako ulit mag trtry sa dating scene. But it would be nice to have someone cheering me on. Anyway, back to my thesis, just needed to spill this out hahahaha.